The ever elusive Jane

Okay, I have to admit that Jane Eyre is one of my favorite novels of all time. This is the third time I've read this book and every time I read it, I learn something new. This time around, I cannot help but wonder what is truly driving Jane's behavior throughout the novel. Yes, I know that she loves Mr. Rochester but I have to wonder if there is something else going on. For starters, St. John is by all means a good match for Jane. He has plenty of money, a notable reputation, and a thriving career. St. Jane  appears to actually be Jane's equal, as they both thrive to do good and to educate themselves further. In many ways, Jane's refusal of St. John is contradictory. Earlier in the novel, Jane ranted about how she wanted to be an equal yet once the opportunity arises, she runs the other way. Jane also spent a long time elaborating on how she would like to see the world and go beyond the bourne. Once again, however, Jane runs away at the opportunity and worries that the Indian sun may not be good for her. I hate to say this--as I love the novel-- but perhaps Jane also aspires to climb up the social ladder? Anyways, that is just food for thought.